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Anger

"Holding on to anger and hatred is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die"  Anger feels like all I've been holding on to lately. Anger at the small-mindedness of other individuals. Anger at the selfishness displayed by the ones dearest to me. Anger at the actions of strangers. Anger at myself for letting myself be affected by the actions of others. Lately it's been a daily struggle, trying to keep myself afloat and not sink down to what feels like their level . I would like to say that I've won the struggle and am a better person than those I've mentioned, but the truth is I'm not . It's a vicious cycle the way I see it. The person you would drop everything to save, wouldn't do the same for you. Or maybe I've just been keeping the wrong company and have been too blind to see it. I'm a stranger to majority, an acquaintance to some, a villain to others, a shoulder to cry on for those that need me, a booty ca
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Dear Mom

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Dear Mom, You deserve so much more than the world ever offered you.  I haven't been a very good daughter. I stay out late, my grades aren't up to par and I'm either never around or always asleep for family days. I used to wonder if you worried about me and my younger brother. You work late nights and travel overseas for work often. You're seldom around. Once, you asked me to come home early more often, and I flared up at you. I got angry. "You weren't even around often, why did you care anyway?"  I accused you of that, thinking you cared more about your career than our family. You fought back saying, just because you weren't around as much, didn't mean you cared any less.  I brushed it off. To me, your actions spoke louder than your words. This year, you missed my birthday for another work trip. I was sad. It seemed like once again, your career proved more important than family. I brushed it off again, because I'd grown used to it by th
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Love

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What is Love? The ancient Greeks called it  "Madness of the Gods".  Modern psychologists and neuroscience tells us it's a drive like thirst . They define it as a strong desire for emotional union with another person.  Emotionally, love is all-consuming, empowering, insane and dangerous.  4 Stages of Love The Honeymoon Period Aftermath of the Honeymoon Period (aka Becoming a Real Couple) Disillusionment Building Real Everlasting Love There are a few lucky ones, that manage to beat the odds and make it to build real everlasting love. However, most of the people I know, including myself, never make it past the disillusionment stage, and here's why. This is my story, it doesn't have a happy ending and right now it doesn't even have an ending. If you're one of the people still in the honeymoon phase, this might not be the story for you, but for those of you that have been in love and never made it past disillusionment , stick around and mayb
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